jensandbulte.com God shows up when we need him most.  I know that to be true, and I’ve seen it time and time again.  And yet, somehow, I am always in awe when it happens. I’ve been a bit undone today.  It’s been 2 months today that my mom went to be with Jesus.  It feels like 2 years.  I miss her and mourn her, and yet rejoice that she is with Jesus.  Because I’m all about being real, I’ll just tell you that it is still a struggle for me.  Not because I’m sad for her, but because I’m sad for me, and my kids, and, and, and. In addition to losing Mom, my family situation is complicated.  Out of respect, I won’t share details, I’ll just leave it at complicated.  Mom was the glue that held us together, and we’ve fallen apart without her.  So, in addition to losing her, for the time being, it feels like I lost my entire family. When I came home from work tonight, the crocodile tears started.  And there was Tom, wrapping those loving arms around me, resting his chin on my head and just loving me through.  God sure knew what he was doing when he gave me him.  To say I’m blessed is an understatement. If you are grieving, or have grieved, then you understand the choking back tears moments that come when you lease expect them. Anyway… later tonight I was driving home, and just praying that God would come near and provide that peace that surpasses all understanding.  I don’t want to get lost in grief, I want to rejoice in salvation and eternity.  And as I prayed, this song came on.  “When everything falls apart, your arms hold me together.”   I couldn’t help but smile.  Yes… I have a God that holds me together.  Amen and Amen and Amen.  I can’t imagine walking this road without God. If you don’t know and love my God, I’d love to tell you more about him.  And if you’re falling apart, it’s ok.  You don’t have to be perfect.  Just be real.  In real life, we all have struggles, and issues, and problems.  And God is right there with us, in the midst of all of it! Click on over to YouTube and listen with me!  Praying this speaks to one of you as much as it did me today! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rk4A5647xHw