Today as I was getting ready for our Simple Talk Bible Study at noon, I reread chapter 5 of Renee Swope’s Confident Heart.
And what jumped out at me is something that I am still processing. I don’t have my book here, so I’m going to paraphrase
How often do we, throughout the day, worry what someone else will think of us? Either consciously or subconsciously? Who are we really trying to please. Usually it is someone else… Our boss, our spouse, or friends, etc. The list goes on and on. We may shift throughout the day of who we are trying to please and who we are worried about thinking less of us.
But in reality, how often do we first think “what does God think of me” For many of us, that seems almost scary to say. But really, shouldn’t we be living our life every minute of every day asking that question. Who are we really living for? What are we living for? Many of us would answer that question with God. But do our actions reflect that?
When I get dressed each morning, and think about my day, Am I REALLY getting dressed to impress God?
When I get upset with Emma cuz she won’t let me fix her hair…. is that for God? or to impress someone else?
When I change twice for church cuz I can’t decide what to wear…. (ok – or maybe what fits, but still…) is that for God?
When I read facebook instead of my bible… Is that for God?
When I buy Christmas presents, but then hesitate to give someone money to go to Haiti… Is that for God?
I think you see where I’m going with all this. Even in our best intentions, we are missing God in so many ways. Don’t ask me why, but this was VERY convicting to me today. I want to go deeper with the Lord, and yet so many of my day to day decisions are shallow and for the wrong reasons.
I don’t want to be lukewarm… I want to be hot. I want my first thought and my last thought of the day to be honoring to God. I want more of him and less of me.
Lord I thank you for humbling me in new ways today. For helping me to see how afraid I am of being sold out fo ryou and not pleasing man. Guide me God. Give me eyes to see what you see when you look at me!