At that moment, I realized that even in the haze, the sun still shines. Sometimes seeing it is difficult, but the sun hadn’t stopped shining.
Because I’ve watched organizations struggle through really hard things, I’ve come to value prayer as an offensive move, instead of a desperate cry out when things are falling apart. However, I had never before had a leader that valued prayer for the organization enough to tell me to schedule time specifically for it. Wow.
I’m not certain that I had ever heard the audible voice of God before. I can tell you that I haven’t heard it that clearly since. With my eyes closed in worship, he was calling me. “Jen, this will be you some day. You will be the one up in the stadium in front of the women sharing. I want you here. Trust me.”
If this hadn’t been such a holy moment, I’m certain I would have laughed. Instead I wept. I stood there, with tears streaming down my face.
Grace does not mean that there aren’t consequences. In fact, many times it is just the opposite. At the very beginning of the bible, in Genesis, we see accountability for our actions. If God would have just said to Eve, It’s ok if you eat that fruit… well, the Bible, and our life would look completely different. Instead, God loved Adam and Eve, even though they sinned and made bad choices. He loved them, but there were still consequences. It’s foundational to our beliefs as Christians.
As I reflect, I’m struck with how much pain and agony we see on the news, and yet how quickly we move onto the next thing. We continue to hear about persecution, and yet how are we responding? Where on our prayer list does it fall? Is it there at all?
I’ve written this post in my head a hundred times in the past week. At first I contemplated writing it differently, but then I realized that if none of us talk about the real stuff, if none of us share because it is embarassing, or because we want to protect our kids, or a variety of other reason, well, then, we will all think we are the only ones. So, while it is hard to share, I feel like someone has to be the brave one that says let’s link arms and fight this battle together, instead of hiding in shame.
Woke up this morning full of condemnation. Starting new today and declaring, I am not a pharisee!
In a very secular world that focus on the value of making a profit, what might happen if we were able to shift our focus and sincerely commit to tithing business profits?
Just as quickly as the peaks and valleys came, clouds covered. I’m reminded how quickly God can change things. Within seconds, I’m no longer able to see the Earth. What a stark reminder that God changes things quickly. Perhaps this week, it will be in the life of just one victim, or one john, or one trafficker. Perhaps more.