www.jensandbulte.comI’m at the sea today with my family and reflecting on Jesus and his fishermen. Leading up to Labor Day I’m planning on exploring our “labor” a bit from a faith perspective.
You see, when God says give…. we can’t get hung up on our “is it enough?” God decides when enough is enough and when you need to give. We are just called to listen.
And today, with these girls, I could see God smiling; almost chuckling. In addition to just depositing the money, I was able to chat with these three girls about the orphanage for the special needs kids. How in that country if they are special needs, they throw them away (literally) and no one wants them because they are considered a curse.
All of this is about so much more than $27.28. SO…SO… much more.
Yes CARTOONS. They are making graphic XXX rated cartoons that appeal to kids.
At that moment, I realized that even in the haze, the sun still shines. Sometimes seeing it is difficult, but the sun hadn’t stopped shining.
Because I’ve watched organizations struggle through really hard things, I’ve come to value prayer as an offensive move, instead of a desperate cry out when things are falling apart. However, I had never before had a leader that valued prayer for the organization enough to tell me to schedule time specifically for it. Wow.
I’m not certain that I had ever heard the audible voice of God before. I can tell you that I haven’t heard it that clearly since. With my eyes closed in worship, he was calling me. “Jen, this will be you some day. You will be the one up in the stadium in front of the women sharing. I want you here. Trust me.”
If this hadn’t been such a holy moment, I’m certain I would have laughed. Instead I wept. I stood there, with tears streaming down my face.
Grace does not mean that there aren’t consequences. In fact, many times it is just the opposite. At the very beginning of the bible, in Genesis, we see accountability for our actions. If God would have just said to Eve, It’s ok if you eat that fruit… well, the Bible, and our life would look completely different. Instead, God loved Adam and Eve, even though they sinned and made bad choices. He loved them, but there were still consequences. It’s foundational to our beliefs as Christians.
As I reflect, I’m struck with how much pain and agony we see on the news, and yet how quickly we move onto the next thing. We continue to hear about persecution, and yet how are we responding? Where on our prayer list does it fall? Is it there at all?
I’ve written this post in my head a hundred times in the past week. At first I contemplated writing it differently, but then I realized that if none of us talk about the real stuff, if none of us share because it is embarassing, or because we want to protect our kids, or a variety of other reason, well, then, we will all think we are the only ones. So, while it is hard to share, I feel like someone has to be the brave one that says let’s link arms and fight this battle together, instead of hiding in shame.
Woke up this morning full of condemnation. Starting new today and declaring, I am not a pharisee!